Today, I decided to pull out my pen and write. I
haven’t had the urge to share my thoughts in months but, that changed today.
These past few months have been the most amazing yet hard times for me. As I
was gaining so much professionally, I personally was losing myself. I no longer
knew who I was. I lost myself trying to chase a dream that no one else believed
in but myself. I lost hope in myself and started second guessing my purpose in
life. I was lost and didn’t know when or who was going to find me. I could no
longer hear my voice. I lost it. I could no longer hear myself think. All I
heard was unwanted opinions, words of doubt and disappointment. I started to
feed into that reflection of me and I forgot to listen to the most important
voice, myself.
Not anymore! Today I woke up and finally heard a
voice I haven’t heard in a long time. Mine! Today I realized that the only
person holding me back was myself. I have to learn to knock down the barriers I
placed before me and break free from the doubt and the pain. Today I
declare victory as fear is no longer my name. Maybe the voices I was hearing
were just fear all along. I feared achieving my dreams because I was afraid to
lose them. I was afraid to fail again. I was afraid to step out on faith
because I had lost it. It took me awhile but I learned to release my fears and regain
my trust and faith in God. We all get lost from time to time but as long as you
find where you are, that is all that matters. Learn, grown and heal.
